In 2009, just a year into our marriage God gave us the wonderful opportunity to adopt our son Cole. We were so full of excitement but at the same time so scared! We knew that God was calling us to adopt and decided to step out in faith and obedience. Here we are 7 years later and taking that leap of faith once again. God sure is full of lots of surprises! To be honest, I never really thought about adopting again until we were faced with the obstacle of PCOS and infertility.
Although we are still believing God for birth children, we just know beyond a shadow of a doubt; that this is what God has called us to do. The road of infertility hasn't been an easy one. Infertility is something you never expect to happen and neither is it something we ever want anyone else to face. It's a nightmare. It had always been our dream to have a big family and when my body wasn't able to reproduce, I felt like a failure. I felt broken and useless. My life felt meaningless. I wanted so bad for Cole to grow up with siblings and to be a big brother.
On October 28th I was on my way to the church when God spoke so clearly to me. He said, "What if it was my plan all along for you to adopt?" I said, "Ok God. If that's what you want, I want what you want." I was so excited to get to the church and tell Josh the good news. As soon as I asked him if he ever felt led to adopt again he said "I've always had a heart for adoption". We were both so excited!! I knew this was a God thing because I had never felt so much peace and joy in my entire life! I confronted Cole about it as well because I've always worried about him feeling less important and wanted him to be on board as well. He told us that he would love that and was so excited! He says he wants a little sister. This filled my heart with so much peace. I don't know the joy that women experience when finding out you're pregnant, but I'm pretty sure I was just as excited as a pregnant lady! haha For the next few days God kept confirming it over and over again through sermons, songs, etc.
To some, it may seem like we've given up on becoming pregnant but it's not like that at all. We have surrendered to the will of God. Gods plan is always greater than our own. We don't always understand what He's doing but that's where faith comes in. For years I had been seeing movies, hearing stories and having people suggest adoption. I was so opposed to it because I didn't want it to seem like I was giving up hope for pregnancy and I also wanted to experience the joys of being pregnant. It hurt and still hurts sometimes to see pregnant women but I know that no matter what, God has a plan for me. It doesn't matter whether a child has grown in your own belly or in the belly of another woman. They are still your child. God sent him to me. It is my calling to be his mother. I love Cole so much! There is no greater honor than being his mom. I feel so loved by God. Cole has helped me through so much over the years. He was there for me through all the highs and lows. There were times when I would get so sad about not being pregnant. Cole would say "Mommy, do you want a hug?" or "Mom, it will be ok".
For years now we've been praying about God's plan to grow our family. We looked into IVF, I took Metformin, tried different diets, natural remedies, etc. Honestly, adoption was the last thing on my mind. I wanted so bad to experience pregnancy, that I totally ignored the fact that God was calling us to adopt again. Let's just say, I was being stubborn. Stubbornness is NOT faith. When we refuse to listen to God's voice, that is stubbornness. Thank God I finally surrendered to His perfect plan. We are just as nervous as we were when we adopted Cole, but we know that God is in control. If God calls you to do something, He's not gonna leave you hanging. He's going to provide every step of the way. We are asking that you please pray for us and support us financially in any way that you are able. The adoption process is going to cost somewhere around $30,000 or more. We appreciate ya'll joining us on this exciting journey ahead! We'll keep you updated through this blog and facebook. We are doing a t-shirt campaign to raise money for the adoption. You can go to the link below and purchase a t-shirt. Thank you so much!
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